Life Bites

2008-08-27T11:03:00.003-04:00

So I'm not sure when I'm going to be running again...

I don't understand what's wrong except that something in my knee is inflamed and makes it painful to use that leg.

I have not been eating healthy at all because of this.

I've been eating too much too late and not when I'm even hungry.

I really want to be running. Heck I'd even BIKE at this point.

I hate sitting around. I feel lazy and icky.

Other than that being back at school is great.

My friends are here, new people, etc..

I think I'm going to nap

2008-08-25T06:20:00.003-04:00

I need to calm the heck down.

I'm like freaking out.

Jeeze.

I'm so high-strung while I'm at school.

btw...I'm stupid and left all my non-running clothes at home.

yaaaah.

awesome.

off to do yoga and get ready for first xc practice.
doing the shortest run this morning because my friend who goes to college around here wants me to run a 3 with her this afternoon so there's no point busting my butt at 8 in the morning still half asleep.

running after school is going to be much better because I'll have a lot my energy because usually running is an outlet for me and by the end of the school day who knows how much will go awry!

peace homies

adddeeed:

uh well then didn't go as well as I could have hoped.

boo.

oh well.

haha now I have nothing to do the rest of the day.

ugh.

i'm pretty sure my xc coach hates me lol.(I guess that's not really funny but since I gave up caring about this place it kinda is)

2008-08-23T16:31:00.001-04:00

I really need to lose my summer weight. My pants don't fit right.

UGH.

2008-08-22T21:51:00.002-04:00

I feel a lot better after hitting the gym hard.

I always feel great after that.

Food was pretty much random.

lots of fruit, luna bars, and a vivanno.

still eating too much to lose a few pounds but that's ok.

Boredom is definitely a major factor in that.

School/XC in 2 days.
So pumped.

2008-08-22T15:53:00.002-04:00

I'm in such a slump right now.

I'm very very upset about how much weight I've gained this summer.

I know it's stupid but I just let it bother me so much and I'm so self conscious.

I don't know what to do and I have no one to talk to about it with.

I am very excited about going back to school because I'll have a lot more to do and won't sit around bored.

I have felt sooo lazy this summer.

I think I will go to the gym now and try to take my mind off things.

2008-08-19T10:35:00.003-04:00

even though I REALLY want to run today I don't think I should because my calf is KILLING me.

I definitely pulled it/strained it.
I'm kinda upset about it because I was really getting into it but I don't want to be out for cross country again.
off to get my senior pics done. Hopefully this won't take long. I'm so not into this!

2008-08-18T23:04:00.002-04:00

so i just ate a yogurt, berry, cantaloupe wrap thing.

yum. but I keep overeating! I think its the working at night thing because I don't get to really sit down and eat until about 10 and by then I'm starved. I eat snacks but I have to scarf them down so they;re not satisfying. ggrrr.

I'm not sure how many calories the wraps are because I thought dietary fiber grams don't actually count as calories but on the package of these wraps they are counted? It says they have 4.5 g fat, i think 4 grams protein, and 36 g carbs which 21 g are supposedly fiber.
So that doesn't make sense if fiber g don't count and the calories are 200? I'm so confused lol.

Gymnastics is on and super exciting! GO WATCH!

2008-08-18T21:57:00.004-04:00

Assorted eats.

I had an apple and yogurt and english muffins for breakfast.

Sorry for no picture!
I also had another Vivanno, an Iced Soy Latte, Iced Coffee, anddd an Luna Tea Cake.

So yummy!
For exercise I did 30 min. on the elliptical and ran 3.2 miles on the treadmill.
I am so in love with running again!
I worked from 2-930 again.

It was uneventful.

I'm going to bed because I have senior pictures tomorrow morning and need to hit the gym before I go to work at 3.

2008-08-17T22:39:00.002-04:00

I really can't get my late night eating under control.
I feel so hungry at night no matter what.
I don't know what to do.

2008-08-17T12:05:00.001-04:00

ONE WEEEEEK!

I'm so excited. I can't wait to go to school and have a schedule again.

I really don't like free time.
I don't know what to do with myself.

I read but I'm not good at sitting still.

I want this week to fly by!

2008-08-16T09:50:00.001-04:00

I'm in trouble.
fudge I just want to go back to school.
not work. not need money.
ugh ugh ugh.

I'm so upset.

2008-08-15T15:06:00.002-04:00

Ran a mile today.

Felt soo nice. Would have gone longer but I was running out of time so I had to stop =]

I think I've figured out why I overeat.
I'm not satisfied without something sweet.

I definitely favor sweet over any other taste.

And it always seems that's what I want when I keep eating and don't feel satisfied.

I think I've always known but then I think that eating the same things all the time aren't that good for you but I guess if it's non-fat/low-fat yogurt and lots of fruits, vegetables, beans, nuts, and whole grains/whole wheat...It can't be bad right?
I think I'm just going to eat the way I want and not worry about exploring different tastes or foods.
I like my comfort zone and I feel the most satisfied and happy when I eat those things!

Off to work!

food post tonight!

2008-08-14T12:45:00.002-04:00

I'm pretty angry right now.
I just went to the doctors and they told me I shrunk.
Yah that's right.
Its been about two years that I've been told I was Five Five and today they told me I was Five Four.
WHAT THE HELL?

I want to grow up not down and out.

but that seems to be what's happening.

grrrr.

And I've been eating stupidly.

Just at weird times and stuff.

Its aggravating.

I have major shin splints today too.

oh jeeze I'm just a grump. I want to go back to school already!

boooooo. =[

2008-08-13T11:57:00.002-04:00

I'm not gonna lie. Strength training is starting to grow on me.

I feel so sore and strong after I strength train.
Except I don't think I'm working my biceps/triceps enough cuz that never feels sore the next day. hmmm.

And I notice that I'm not as "omg I feel so faaaat" the next day.

Which, for me, is kinda a miracle.

I know that once I start running everyday I'm going to feel amazing.

I just wish I could motivate myself to do it NOW.

I'm so lazy!

I bought more clothes yesterday!
I had 2 "get 25 dollars off when you spend 50" so I got to spend 100 dollars and only pay 50!

I am a dress lover.

It surprises most people who know me because I'm a tomboy minus the dresses. lol.

I just don't like pants because they're not made out of pure cotton and they always have strecth stuff which is NOT cool.

And dresses are more forgiving lol

Um soo today I'm just doing cardio and going TANNING.
I know soo bad for you but its my vice.

I love being tan and lotion just makes me look orange.

Big shout out to Kelly at Every Gym's Nightmare/Grounded Fitness because she's awesome and answered my silly questions with no complaints! Thanks Kelly!

2008-08-12T20:33:00.002-04:00

I am feeling very regretful today.

I wish that I didn't feel such strong emotions about things sometimes.
I let little things bother me.

Like the fact I've gained a few pounds and other such things.

Its not so much the pounds but the fact that my body isn't in the shape I wish it was and that leaves me thinking I'm "fat" when I'm really not.
I know I'm out of shape and a little flabby.
But I've been in and out of ED cycles and still don't know my hunger cues.

I really want to ask my parents to let me see the counselor again but then they'll worry and we don't have the money either.

I don't know what to do. You can't talk to someone who hasn't had an ED about and ED because they'll never understand. And its not something I want to talk to anyone about really.

I just want to be happier and I can't figure out how to achieve that.

2008-08-12T18:00:00.002-04:00

not a good day.

munched on peanut butter all day and now i feel sick.

went to play ultimate frisbee anyway and played for a while before I went to the gym for some strength training.

now I think I'm about to leave to road trip up to school for a day to hang out with my college friends before they leave.

2008-08-11T23:02:00.002-04:00

I had Luna Bars for snacks at work today plus a Grande Soy Latte. I actually had an Iced Oatmeal Raisin one too but I must have erased the picture...opps! They were both delicious! My favorite is still Chai Tea but these are definitely great also. I like the tea cake because it was like a healthy brownie! And the Oatmeal Raisin was good because it was chewy/crunchy. And I definitely liked breaking up my afternoon into snacks instead of a meal because I didn't feel as hungry!
After work I went to the gym and did the elliptical and then ran. It felt SOOO good to run(jog) and it wasn't quite as bad as I thought it would be. I ended up running a mile faster than I thought...I warmed up with a minute or two of walking at 3.5 then ran half a mile at 5.0 then ran about a minute at 7.0 then 30secs at 6.5 then maybe 2 more minutes at 5.0 and ramped it up to 6.0 then sprinted the last .05 miles at 7.0. It ended up being about 12 minutes which was better than I thought but I guess that's about right when I usually jog a mile at 5.0. Not great but better than 15 minutes eh?
This stuff was DELICIOUS. I never liked BBQ when I was omni so I was kind of surprised I liked it so much. As you can see in the picture above this one I had it on a yam with an Ezekiel muffin and salsa plus a glass of low sodium V8 and mint tea. Definitely satisfying!
Some of my books. This is where all my money went this summer. I've probably spent about a quarter of my work money on books! Right now I'm reading The Omnivore's Dilemma. I just finished Breaking Dawn and I'm trying to finish up the Gossip Girl Series(so stupid but I love the books and the show!)I really like The Omnivore's Dilemma because its very informational! I really like non-fiction.
I had more fruit than this but I ate some of this before I took a picture. I also had a carrot. The fruit was pineapple, watermelon, green grapes, cherries, strawberries, cantaloupe...YUM

2008-08-11T11:13:00.004-04:00

woke up thinking I was going to the gym

but then I decided I'd rather go after work because I'm always bored at night so it would keep me occuppied.

I've been thinking about running lately and I just can't get into it.
It makes me disappointed in myself because I used to love it but I just don't have the motivation.

Hopefully XC will get me back into it.
I don't run fast and its kind of embarassing because I'm on a XC team and I finish with times in the 30 min. range but I like to run to run not to win a race or be fast I like enjoying myself and feeling accomplished. (i also don't go fast because I end up hurting myself...I'm a MAJOR klutz...my parents call me Gracie as a joke..)

For breakfast I had cold oats with some fage, cherries, and almonds. it was runny today though and not as good as usual. =\

2008-08-10T21:14:00.004-04:00

I feel sooo much better!
Exercise is amazingly healing for the mind.

I still haven't gotten my eating in check.

I don't know what's up with my appetite but I'm hungry all the time.

And I want to lose a few pounds lol.

I've been just hanging out with friends and cleaning and packing and watching the olympics these last two days.

I saw Pineapple Express.
Stupid but HILARIOUS.

I really wish quorn cutlets didn't have egg in them. I love them but the egg makes me feel guilty!

here's some of my eats this weekend

annnd USA is not doing so hot in gymnastics right now...poop

2008-08-08T13:24:00.002-04:00

wow guys I feel so unhealthy.

vacation was great though.
lots of sun and fun with the fam.

but it definitely got me thinking about taking better care of myself.

i'm becoming waaaaay too obsessive about my body and what I eat

when I should be concentrating on my strength and stamina.
i want to have a great school year and that means being strong for athletics.

I am taking the two weeks before I go back to school to figure out the best strategy for this.

I should probably see a nutritionist or trainer maybe.

2008-08-06T19:36:00.002-04:00

ugh had a not so great day.
ate something and now i feel ultra super sick.
i think it has to do with all the pepsi i've been drinking. ICK.
i haven't been working out either so that's not helping me any lol
i have to put this out there because I'm amazed but A&F jeans are AWESOME.
i never really liked A&F so for me to say this is a little strange.
they are very soft though and even though they're stretchy, they're not that weird jean material just real cotton-y. And contrary to what I thought they don't run super small. They fit really well except they make your butt flat LOL.

2008-08-06T09:48:00.002-04:00

Its been a crazyyyy couple days!
We left for Myrtle Beach at 9 in the morning Saturday.
Well we had a few mishaps. And ended up getting in at 6 Sunday morning.
Sunday we just relaxed and slept.
Monday we headed to the beach.
Tuesday we shopped.
Today we're gona lay at the pool.
Pictures later.
=]

2008-07-27T22:56:00.002-04:00

I'm eating excessively and yet I think I'm getting slimmer?
I think alot of my food is going to muscle production which makes me happy.
I just feel a little out of control with my eating since I really don't have a schedule while I'm home because of my different work schedule. Its really aggravating to not be able to eat whenever I want.

I think I'm gona take a break for the next two weeks and come back when I'm starting to get back on track with school!
See you in two weeks!

2008-07-26T22:53:00.003-04:00

Today was a lonnnng day!
And I ate a lot and did a lot!
So I ended up going to the gym around 12:30.
Did a long elliptical session and then three sets of 7 different upper body machines going 12 rep, 10 rep, 8 rep because my arms are not in shape enough to actually do three sets of 12. lol so weak!
I worked 4 to 10ish. it wasn't bad just boring since I was in the fitting room all night.

For eats I had oats:

1/2 c. oats, 1/2 c. water, 2 tbs soynut butter, 2 tbs almonds, medium banana, 4 tbs plain soy yogurt...this was soooo good!

I then had a soy latte grande. yummy.(no pic cuz it was in my mug and I forgot!)
I also had 3 pieces of Ezekiel Cin-Raisin toast with 2 bananas, and 2 tbs soynut butter.

And last I had a bigggg bowl of Skinny Cow Icecream Cones that I crushed up because I didn't want to inhale my favorite icecream!

Now I'm going to bed because I'm BEAT! And I'm hoping to go shopping and get in another workout before work at 5:30!

2008-07-26T10:36:00.002-04:00

ok I'm back to say NEVER AGAIN...never EVER again will I eat milk chocolate...
I feel like poop. And my plans for today have been all thrown off now. oh well.
I made a grocery run to grab salad stuff and some apples and bananas. I've just been downing water by the 20 oz. cup trying to flush myself out. I'll feel better after I work out too most likely.

2008-07-26T08:50:00.002-04:00

well now I remember why I don't eat chocolate often...
One: I can't stop with just one piece!
Two: It makes me SICK!

I feel awful this morning after eating some chocolate with my brother and his friend while watching a movie last night. =[ I wanted to hit the gym earlier than usual but I think I'm probably gona get there at the same time as usual(around 1) just because my stomach is uneasy. I think I'll run to the farmer's market right now and maybe the health food store.

hmmm.

have a good day!

2008-07-25T22:36:00.003-04:00

so that's my eats today plus a sandwich that I couldn't upload a picture of because my phone died. it was just WW Potato bread with tomato, hummus, boca burger, and spinach.

I ate the rest of my cedar's hummus also and had quite a few more clementines!

2008-07-25T09:42:00.003-04:00

GOOD MORNING!!
lol I love coffee, I get really energized when I drink it but its only half caffeinated soo it may just be like a placebo for me!
I know coffee isn't the best for you but in the summer I just don't make much tea.

Probably because there's already coffee ready in the morning and it tastes good unlike school's coffee that DEFINITELY tastes like cleaning products(not that I know what that tastes like but you know when stuff tastes like a smell...yah)
I'm about to eat breakfast but I don't know what I'm gona have lol.

BTW I'm watching the Today show and Miley Cyrus is on and I'm sorry I'm not in love with her music but she is just the cutest little thing ever! lol

So...I've really been debating about becoming vegan and I've come to conclusion that I probably can't commit 100% to a vegan diet.

Mostly because I'm completely ADDICTED to skinny cow icecream cones, no joke!
And since I go to a boarding school that barely has edible omnivore food, I would starve trying to sustain on a vegan diet.
That's not to say I'm going to try to eat a primarily vegan diet.
I will only indulge in some dairy products(icecream and protein shakes mainly)
because eggs just gross me out and I'm in love with Whole Soy and Co. Plain soy yogurt!!
My diet will be getting a severe overhaul once I come back from vacation because I'll be running A LOT and trying to get used to eating smaller meals more often how I eat at school...so that means I need to find somewhere that sells Luna and Larabars...and some other good healthy options for small snacks throughout the day! Any suggestions??

2008-07-24T22:04:00.002-04:00

wow I don't know what's up with my appetite but I am hungry so much more lately!
Or I'm just being an eater. I usually am not very eaty. I usually don't have much appetite. but two weeks has made me eaty! Maybe from working out more and *crosses fingers* building muscle?
I hope to GOD.
I don't know if I've really gained any weight because my work clothes feel the same except for last week but I was PMS-y sooo...yah!
I hope I didn't gain weight because I just bought new clothes because I grew up and all my pants were short and my shirts were midriff baring! (I am a very modest, tom-boyish girl..I like my clothes loose...a.k.a. a size or two bigger than normal people lol)

2008-07-24T20:05:00.005-04:00

I had a reallly great day!
Got up early for a workout
the weather was nice a cool and pretty!
i got a FREE soy latter from Starbucks
because they told me they took debit and they actually don't
so they were like "opps here have a free coffee" !!!

it was Venti annnnd I had a few apples before and after gym time lol (you can see the core next to my cup...i DEVOUR apples)

Then I took my brother's friend A too work and headed to work myself.
Work was pretty fun today, there are a lot of new people who are really funny!
And there are always really nice people that you end up cashiering for, so it was good.
Lunch was a sandwich of WW Potato Bread, hommus (2tbs), spinach, chopped tomato, and a boca burger plus a cup of V8. I'm sorry for no picture but I totally forgot!
I just got off work at 7 and came home to an empty house!
Mom's seeing a play with friends, Dad has a double header to umpire, and G is at A's lol!
So I made myself a nice smoothie with some Ezekial Cin-Raisin Toast! SO GOOD

I finally figured out the smoothie thing too!
You have to slowly add the ice...DUH to me!
I slowly added about 6 half cups of crushed ice to my already blended mix of:
1 tbs. flax meal
2 small/medium ? bananas
1 cup 8th Continent Light Vanilla Soymilk
1 packet of Spirutein (chocolate peanut butter swirl)

the verdict on that was...i think it would have tasted yummier if it were just peanutbutter flavored but not bad!

I'm pretty tired at the moment!
and thirsty!
I don't work until 4 tomorrow
I'm not sure what I'll get into :S

2008-07-23T20:19:00.003-04:00

The weather is WET! but cool so that's a good change.
hopefully it doesn't get hot and humid tomorrow!
i ate soooo much today!
Mostly fruit and veggies though, yumm!
I wish I could eat lots of fruit and veggies at all meals but produce is so expensive!
I had a great workout and I'm quite sore.
I tweaked my knee a bit.
Oh man am I stuffed!!
And I'm going to the beach in two weeks lol
I gotta get this chilled out.
Stupid boredom!
I need more books!

2008-07-23T12:51:00.002-04:00

I had fun chilling with friends last night.
We talked a lot and caught up and all that then watched Gilmore Girls lol.

Didn't sleep til about 1:30!

and got up at 6:30.

my appetite is raging from the lack of sleep and nothing is satieting the hunger. boo. =[
i had almond butter on toast with apple slices. yumm.

and some refried beans with hommus later on.

2008-07-22T19:23:00.003-04:00

I finally slept!
Around 3 p.m. lol!
but I was out from then on.
I woke up for work at 9.

ate quorn naked cutlets and hommus for breakfast...(weird i know!)

it was yum flavor-wise but not so much tummy-wise!

work was busy...i got yelled at!
this one lady ran off before her check processed correctly(printer thing was being difficult)
but she came back because she realized she forgot to pay for her water being in such a rush!
so we got the check all straightened out and gave her the water for free because if she hadn't been honest and come back we would have had just given away a lot of free stuff!
Definitely lucky on my part!

I met my mom at the gym after work and did an intense cardio workout on the elliptical followed by some strength training.
I felt soooo good after my workout =]

I had a big bowl of cold oats for dinner

pumpkin pie style!

crummy picture! sorry =[

heading out to a friend's for awhile.
no work again tomorrow so that means a really good sweat session!
less than two weeks til myrtle beach!!!

2008-07-21T13:40:00.003-04:00

haven't slept yet...but not for the lack of trying. ugggh. i WANT to SLEEP but everytime I lay down I just can't seem to just SLEEP. I'm super grumpy because of this and didn't go to the gym and ate horribly today. REALLY horribly.

I want to SLEEEEEEEP =[

this is ridiculous.

2008-07-20T20:42:00.004-04:00

AHHH! I'm sooooo sorry I've been gone for so long!
It has been a busy busy week for me!

I worked a lot! annnd

I was just feeling like poop about myself all week and had no desire to do much blogging.

CAUTION: T.M.I. AND SELF-DEPRECATION AHEAD

Ladies, you know what I'm talking about when you just feel bloaty and unattractive yah?
Well that's what I felt for about a week and a half now.
I can't tell you why because I have no idea.
I may go along with the PMS idea for now but I really think my feelings were a bit extreme.

I was finally getting over today when I was lounging at my mom's friend's pool and she said "I wish I had a body like yours."

but then I had to go buy clothes for back to school and they only had a size larger than what I normally wear so I said "what the heck" and tried them on...well they weren't very much larger...it made me a litttttle bit depressed.
But that's women's clothing for you...I have such a wide range of sizes, it's ridiculous!
It's so aggravating though because nothing every fits like you want it to or if it does it takes a hunt to find it!
It definitely shows how the clothing industry feeds into being a certain shape.

If it was up to me I'd wear sweats and tshirts all the time just because it's SUCH a pain to shop for clothes...
strangely I love dresses! I find them extremely comfortable!

So besides that...I went to see 'The Dark Knight' and it was pretty good. I'm not a batman fan...I'll admit I only wanted to see Aaron Eckart and Heath Ledger! (Yes I am one of those people that will see movies just because of who's in them despite the lack of interest in the plotline)

I've been eating well the last few days since grocery shopping and have fell in LOVE with soy yogurt! I got plain Whole Soy&Co and I don't know how to explain the taste but it was DELISHHH!! I have some blueberry and raspberry also but haven't tried them yet. I also made pumpkin oatmeal and OMG! I think this and cherry/banana oats are deffff. my favorites and the pumpkin kind is a lot cheaper because I get about seven servings from one can!

pumpkin oats.(bad picture sorry!)

Ezekiel Cin-Raisin w/ Maranath Honey Almond Butter and sliced apple

2008-07-15T22:46:00.003-04:00

Let me start by saying I REALLY need to get my eating undercontrol.
I duno what's been up with me the past week but I am CONSTANTLY hungry...at night.
I'm not hungry at all during the day...(I do eat though!)
and then I'm suuuuper hungry at night?
Its weird.
I think it's because of my PMS...but maybe I'm just making excuses?
Oh welll...I haven't slacked off hitting the gym or nutrition-wise just intake wise so I guess it probably isn't hurting me!
I really really need to start doing upper body because my arms are like jello jiggles! lol!
Work was very slow because I was back at the Fitting Room and just sat there for eight hours because there wasn't any busywork for me today. I felt like I was there for a whole day not eight hours!
I'm tired and want to get in a workout in the morning before work so I'm hitting the hay.
Sorry for the lack of pictures I have a dinner picture but I really just munched all day and had the usual salad!

2008-07-14T20:48:00.009-04:00

My day off was pretty fantabulous!
I woke up late and watched some Today show while sipping coffee.

Had an apple before I went to the dentist.
Had watermelon and some carrots before my brother and I took his friend a bday present.

Waited around for my brother to be ready to go to the pool and I headed to the gym.
Had a GREAT workout at the gym. =]
Then had a not so great salad because the squash went all mushy.

I layed around outside in my yard reading for a bit because the weather was awesome!

^Juel^^Pumpkin^

Later I ran out to the store to pick up some more salad stuff and workout stuff.
Dinner was:
waffles with chobani strawberry yogurt, blueberries, and almonds. I adore almonds if you haven't noticed!

and then I had some the last of my cereal with another chobani strawberry yogurt and banana.

2008-07-13T21:32:00.002-04:00

I'm so cranky!
jeesh. I ate too much again today.

and no walk or gym.

I was on my feet all day running around at work so I guess that's better than sitting on my butt!

I'm not sure if I imagine it or not but I definitely feel better when I eat less processed food.
For example, I feel much better when I eat oatmeal or Ezekiel bread as opposed to eating some kind of cold cereal or other bread.
I really think I'm making it up though. I duno.
I didn't take pictures of my food today because I'm embarrassed by how much I ate the last few days!
I've been completely bingeing on fruit.

Its definitely making me feel a little out of control.
I'm in one of those moods lately though that nothing is very satisfying and I'm not excited about eating...I'm only eating because my body is telling me I'm hungry.
I'm praying I can sleep better tonight but I'm thinking I can because I didn't have much caffeine.
I'm soooooo excited about how close August is though!
Everything good happens in August!

2008-07-13T11:15:00.002-04:00

it has most certainly been one of those weeks.

tomorrow we start anew...thank god.

I know its stupid but I've just feel so bad when I over eat.
even though I know it's not junk that I'm eating.
I just feel weak because I know that if I over eat I'm going to feel shitty
but I do it anyway.

I really wish I could control myself better.
jeesh.

I can't go to the gym today so I'm gona try to get in a walk/jog/run with my mom tonight after work.
Hopefully that will improve my mood.

Hope y'all are having a good weekend!

2008-07-13T08:16:00.003-04:00

Either I'm sick or being a girl REALLY sucks...(sorry if that's tmi)

I'm gona go with #2 because I never get sick.

My workout was long and pretty easy I guess.
I wasn't feeling so hot and my knees were bugging me.
I went really early because I just haven't been able to sleep lately.
I go to bed at around 11 and I'm up at 5.
Maybe that's normal for some but I usually don't get up until 9.
And I usually wake up three or four times a night.
After I got home from the gym I grabbed a shower and then went and ran some errands with my mama.
We hit the natural foods store, a little farmer's market, and a thrift shop before we had to head back so I could grab a bite to eat and head to work.
Work...was not fun last night. Like I said I was feeling sick and the one GSTL was driving me crazy with her peppiness.

I work again today 12-7 and I'm definitely debating about calling in sick because I just want to lay in bed all day but I know I should go.

foood:
banana mash and almonds^ I ate a lot of this today periodically. I love it!

Then the usual salad. I also had some fruit like pineapple, cherries, blueberries, strawberries, apples, watermelon, cantaloupe, and strawberries. Plus more banana mash....quite yummy!

2008-07-12T08:41:00.001-04:00

ahhh I ended up going out again after I posted and boy did I EAT. I feel grrrrroooossss this morning. So I'm heading out for a hardcore sweat session and then to the farmer's market to buy some fresh fruit. I think I'm going to do a little raw dieting this weekend just to flush out my system.

2008-07-11T22:12:00.004-04:00

I'm sorry I'm so boring guys(if anyone reads this haha)
uhhmm last nights I had cold oats and an almond banana smoothie
I need to figure out what the right ratio of ice to yogurt/soymilk is right though!
I don't have a picture of my smoothie but it looks just like the one I had the other night!

dinner both nights^ yummmm

I've been soooo busy!
Last night I didn't get to post before I went to bed because I was hanging out with my brother and his friends all night. Good times. haha.
I'm having such a great summer I don't want to go back to school and have to start applying to college.
stressfuulll. this blog will be much more exciting when school starts though!
I PROMISE!

So I woke up and headed to the gym at around 9ish after a cup of coffee.
(I woke up at 8:30)
Great workout! But I really need to do more strength training.
I just find it very boring!
Maybe if I do pilates or yoga or other such things that will help?
I had yummmmy mashed banana toast.
Yes. Mashed. I don't know what it is but I can't eat bananas without mashing or changing their texture somewhat. Weird much?
I had the mashed banana on Cinnamon Raisin Ezekiel Bread!
I ate 3 1/2 pieces before I took a picture lol!

with an apple on the side(no pic)

Work was fun...it was pretty crazy today.
I love working at Target, it's like playtime lol!
I had a big salad for lunch which was delicious. I love salad.
This one had just about every vegetable I could get my hands on plus almonds, "bacon", and red beans.

I won't bore you with another picture of my cold oatmeal. I love this stuff though! I honestly can't get enough!!! Since it's the weekend I'll try to be a bit more inventive (or at least different lol)
I had some carrots today too.
I saw Wanted tonight with my friend and let me just say it was great but jeeeeze was it a crazy movie or what?

2008-07-10T10:36:00.004-04:00

Sometimes, being female SUCKS.

Like when its that time of the month.

I know I'm not really as hungry as I feel but its like if I don't eat what I'm craving its all I think about but if I do eat it...its so hard to stop!

Luckily I worked out extra hard yesterday and ate well so I kinda allowed myself to pig out on popcorn. lol.

So I'm also hitting the gym hard today because

1) I've just felt so energized! and

2)I don't think I'll make it tomorrow because of my work schedule and the gym schedule don't work out very well on Friday and

I don't want to get up early to workout...I like sleep!

My mom is "worried" about me because I haven't been going out with my friends much.
It isn't like I don't love my friends and want to spend time with them

but I really like quiet "me" time in the summer because I don't get any when I'm away at school. I love reading and such outside and just relaxing. Its just perfect.
I'm really having a great summer and I'm not upset about not talking to my friends that much. I have my friends at work that I spend hours at a time working with and I like being with my family!

Food wise I'm just warning you that I'm going to be pretty boring because I have less time and money to make stuff.
And I am a creature of habit. I get into ruts where I love a certain thing so for awhile this may be a blog about just my life and training for XC season and work and such.

I had cold oats last night. This has become my absolute favorite thing to eat and I'll be eating this at school a lot. It's a lot more satisfying than cold cereal!
And that's exactly what I had for breakfast today...cold cereal! lol.
This is a really tiny bowl so I had about 3 of them in the end.
It's Special K Protein Plus fyi. =] (with West Soy Organic Unsweetened Soy)

2008-07-09T19:00:00.004-04:00

I'm kinda sad because I have no more of my salad mix that I made this weekend =[
I've munched on 2 big carrots and 2 small apples this afternoon.

So I made a nice trip to the gym to hit the elliptical.

I got nice and sweaty and it felt GREAT!

Then I went to visit my Grama and we watched Days of Our Lives !!!
I didn't even know that was STILL on!

I came home and showered then ate a great big salad.

2008-07-09T10:12:00.002-04:00

my finger got in the way...opps!

Breakfast was a sandwich with guacamole, lettuce, tomato, Martin's WWPB, annnd Morningstar "bacon". Plus a glass of V8.
I didn't really like the bacon. I won't buy it again...but I need to eat it and the guacamole before it goes bad!

2008-07-08T20:52:00.004-04:00

I got a new car!(sorta)
It's used but I love it.

Meet Goldie Honda...haha get it? Hawn-da..hehe.
Yesterday was not a great day but it ended well because that's when I got my car.
I got up for work at 7 to make my lunch and get ready by 8...
but I forgot my lunch and my glasses and my cell.
So my dad brought them for me at 1.
I was starving by then because I only had tea and an apple for breakfast because I was a monster Sunday night and devoured a bunch of fruit and dark chocolate.
not pretty.
I ended up not getting to the gym Monday and eating a lot in the evening which was just not good.

On a brighter note, today was great!
I got up and went to pick up the 5 lbs or so of fresh blueberries my Gran bought for us. Delicious!
I came home for a bit and then went to the gym and had a GREAT workout.
I'm so sore but in a 'wow i kicked my own ass today' kind of way.
I got home and showered and made a smoothie.
That was a disaster because we had(past tense because I bought a new one tonight!)
a really, really, really old JCPenney's blender that was my GREATgrandmothers.
It was shot and you had to stir the mixture to get the ice chunks out and in the process destroyed my dad's favorite spatula(bought him a new one=])

almonds, banana, flax meal, wheat germ, yogurt...yummm
After I ate my dad and I went out to trade titles of the cars and pick up my new one.
We also had to stop by my grandparents' to drop off my pap's pick-up that we were borrowing.
Then I just went to get my blender and such from Target(i can't stay away!)
Now I'm snacking on some homemade yogurt-sicles and kettlecorn!

2008-07-06T18:50:00.002-04:00

I've been pretty busy with work and going to the gym and such.

I keep forgetting to take pictures of my meals.

They've been mostly fruit, salad, beans, and yogurt anyway.

I did make a banana-almond smoothie after the gym.

It was HUGE...but oh so yummy, it took me about an hour to get through all of it!

This may seem weird but I'm, like, un-craving bread lately.
How strange! Usually people crave bread I thought.

I've really bean craving fruits and veggies.

My salad today was delish!
I really need to finish up my spinach because its getting a little slimy.

I don't know what else to eat it with besides my usual sandwich, and I don't like warm spinach...hmmm.

I'm not sure if I mentioned but I got Skinny Bitch on Thursday?Friday? and had it finished in no time. Its such a great book. I would love more books about the vegan lifestyle and the environment and nutrition but I don't have the money for many luxury items and the 2 libraries in our town are laughable.

I really want to become completely vegan but I just can't shake my yogurt habit and can't find anywhere that sells soy yogurt in the large containers(I really hate to buy all that extra packaging!)

well I'm gona go have a snack and hit the sack, work again in the morning!

2008-07-04T10:37:00.002-04:00

Last night was terrible.

I have no car right now because mine went kaput.

It was a junker anyway and we only put like 1000 dollars into it after getting it for free but it was still a car and got me around.

I don't know what I'm gona do.

I guess I'll go back to riding my bike everywhere and while I love riding my bike it's SOOOO hot and riding five or so miles can really suck.

I ate a ton last night too after I worked out for another 35 minutes on the elliptical.

I guess that's ok because I burned a shitload of calories on the elliptical today and just running around but I kinda feel crummy because it wasn't like I was hungry after I worked out but I knew I should have eaten so I did.

I had fruit (frozen cherries, bananas, and clementines) along with carnation instant breakfast mixed with almonds and plain nonfat yogurt.

This morning I had cold carnation instant breakfast chocolate oats with cherries, almonds, flax, yogurt and wheat germ.

(no pic...forgot/too lazy/still angry)

I also finish reading Skinny Bitch.

It was good, made me glad I'm a vegetarian but also found it a little ridiculous that they say you have to be vegan to be skinny.

I want to become vegan eventually but at this point my vegetarianism still makes my family pissy so I'm going to have to wait until I'm on my own.

My dad thinks I'm hippy-dippy enough as I am.

I'm pretty excited to go away to college and be on my own so I can become vegan.

2008-07-03T18:05:00.002-04:00

Dinner last night was the same ol' sandwich...then I had kettlecorn.

I had oats again in the morning...sammmeee such a yummy salad! I had two! It was about four handfuls of a mix of:
chopped carrots
olives
mushrooms
iceberg lettuce
spring mix
then I topped it off with 2 slices sesame tofu and 1/4 c. beans on each. It was really good and I'm definitely making it again but I'll have to buy more tofu!
how cute are these bowls? I got them from Target for .50 cents! I bought four but I dropped one. opps.

Headed to the gym at 1 after dropping my brother and his friends off at the pool.

did the elliptical for about an hour.
going back to the gym with my mom right now so i'll probably just bike.

i went to a bonfire last night..wasn't that interesting. it was weird because my brother was there too and we rarely have the same group of friends even though we both like each others friends

2008-07-02T14:55:00.005-04:00

I don't even know I have a blog at the moment..because it's not like I've had much excitement in my life lately.

I had cereal again last night. borrrring. I was on a cereal kick yesterday, strange since I usually think cereal is completely unsatisfying. Maybe that's why I ate so much of it yesterday?

I had my overnight oats for breakfast but used water overnight and added greek yogurt this morning. I like it better this way, the consistency was different, softer? I don't know how to describe it. I also had two cups of chai tea.

Hit the gym earlier than normal and did 30 min. on the arc trainer and 35 on the elliptical. I love cardio! I wasn't up to getting in a strength workout so I think I'll head back later.

For lunch I had a grilled soynut butter and banana sandwich on Ezekiel cinnamon raisin bread. I grilled in on a George Foreman too! haha

I'm super excited because Walgreens opened here and at school my friends and I live off Walgreens. I don't know what I'd do without Walgreens. My mom bought me Skinny Bitch, so I think I'm gona chill outside and read.

2008-07-01T16:05:00.002-04:00

dinner!(sort of)

100% WW potato bread
tbs hummus
tbs guacamole
spinach
tomato
sesame ginger tofu

I kinda just munched on my cereal sporadically throughout the day.
Went to the gym for an hour and a half and had a really good cardio workout along with some lower body work. I didn't do much else...I'm so boring, I know!
I have work from 5 to 9:45.I'm glad sorta because I'm so bored. Hopefully, D will be working. I haven't seen him for so long!

tired

2008-06-30T22:18:00.002-04:00

post lifting dinner/snack...cold oatmeal!

I used:
3/4 c. soymilk
2 tbs wheatgerm
1 tbs flax meal
handful frozen fruit
1/4 c. fiber one
annd sweetener

Breakfast!
Two bowls of 3/4 c. Special K and 1/4 c. Fiber One plus 1/2 c. soymilk and a handful of berries followed by two cups of tea!

I was too tired last night to post my post workout meal. I was pretty much falling asleep as I ate! I felt really good about my workout and I'm glad I'm getting that strength training in because I really should be doing that with all the cardio I do.
I was a little bummed that I missed the yoga class at the gym but there's always another day!

I'm gona go to the gym before I go to work at 5 and just do cardio.

I really don't know how often you're supposed to do strength training.
Men are always doing that but can women do the same? I should see a personal trainer at least once before I head back to school so I know what to be doing while I'm up there with only free weights.

lunch

2008-06-30T17:31:00.003-04:00

V8 in a little Hello Kitty! cup I <3>

Martin's 100% WW Potato bread(cburg's greatest asset)
1 tbs. hommus
1 tbs. guac
spinach
tomato
quorn chik'n breast

I went to the gym and did 70 min on the elliptical. It felt great except my knee is bugging me now...stupid tendonitis.
I'm about to go again with my mom and get in a strength work out. I really need to do more strength but I think the machines are boring and I don't want to hurt myself
lifting free weights. I'm so out of shape...its ridiculous lol.

boooo

2008-06-30T11:43:00.006-04:00

I woke up at 6 again today, but only because my mama was screaming at my dad because he threw a cigarette butt into the garbage and it caught fire.

kinda scary but kinda funny too.

I debated about going to the gym but ended up going back to sleep because I don't work today and didn't know what else I would do the rest of the day.

I got back up at about 9 I guess and lounged before eating breakfast.

I've been munching on that cantaloupe all morning so I'm not sure but I think I've had a whole melon. oh well.

I think I'm going to head to the gym. I'm in a weird mood today. We'll see.

Insanity

2008-06-29T20:39:00.004-04:00

I didn't get any real sleep last night. =[

I was sick to my stomach from dinner at our reunion [more on that to follow] and my parents, brother and I all share one room...and my dad snores like...

I honestly don't know how to describe it. Let's just say I tried to listen to music on my Ipod to drown it out but I could still hear him...and my Ipod goes super loud.

So..no sleep, a meager breakfast, and a heckuva lotta coffee is what I ran on today at work. I think everyone thought I was completely stoned or just plain simple minded when I was at the register today.

The reunion was great. There weren't any kids there besides my brother and I and two of my younger, distant cousins even though there are a lot more kids in our large family than that! It was mostly my distant relatives though because it was really to celebrate my Great Aunt Margie and Uncle Tom's 50th wedding anniversary...um WOW! My second cousins are my parents age and their kids didn't really come but my one set of second cousins are totally kick ass! They're my parents age and bikers and live in Baltimore. They remind me of my parents because they're so cool. lol.

Um...right...dinner at the reunion...fruit cup...salad...buttered vegetables...
not much but the people that catered didn't know I was a vegetarian and I'm not a big spaghetti person.

The butter made me sick. I'm not sure why but I am grossed out by butter. I just think it doesn't taste right and it always makes me sick. I'm not sure if that's even really possible. My parents think I just don't eat fat and carbs but I really just don't like butter or Spaghetti. I just don't put SHIT in my body (besides artificial sweetener...yah, I know, I'm a hypocrite.)

After that I had more fruit and a ton of crackers and oatmeal...

I don't know why I ate all that but I did... It's probably ok since I was on the elliptical an hour and did some upper body. It was probably still too much for one day but that's ok.

Today I woke up feeling like poop. I think it would be the equivalent to what feeling hungover would feel like(not that I would know)

We slowly got ready to head out because I had to be at work at 12 and it takes about 2 hours(give or take) to get home from Lancaster.

We were going to leave but then my kickass second cousins invited us to breakfast with them and my parents told me to call into work and ask if I could come in at 1(and it was ok because Target is a great place to work...but we made it back in time for me to be there at 12 anyway!)

At Perkins I had plain oatmeal and some fruit with coffee because I just wasn't feeling that hungry. I did order eggs but I really don't like eggs so I ended up giving them to my dad.

I got to work by 12:15 and it was a good thing because Target was busyyy.

I didn't get to eat my lunch until about 4:30 (way too long from the last time I ate but I honestly wasn't hungry anway until about then...maybe because I chew gum like robotically while I'm at work?)

I had cottage cheese for lunch. Just cottage cheese. Fat Free Breakstones. I ate 2 cups of that stuff! I love Cottage Cheese though. Yogurt and Cottage Cheese are my two favorite foods. I eat them excessively. Ya'll probably think that's gross! =P

This is basically my dinner right here:

It's two small La Tortilla Factory WW wraps.
two handfuls each of strawberries and blueberries.

1/2 c. Dannon's nonfat plain all natural yogurt.

2 tbs wheat germ

1 tbs flax

sweetener

and there are clementines on there but I just picked them off.

I may or may not do some working out. I really doubt it though because I hardly ate much at all today and I'm quite tired.

Craziness!

2008-06-28T13:16:00.002-04:00

Today I woke up at...5:30!

It's Saturday for god's sake...but I just couldn't[get back to] sleep =[

So I watched Pimp My Ride and Storytellers (Ft. Snoop Dog) on MTV...

I hate TV...but everything else was Infomercials.

So I ate two apples (golden delicious) and 3 cups of coffee before I went to the gym.

I did two different elliptical machines for 30 mins each (one to go forward motion and the other backward motion)

I also did some upper body, but not much because I had to get home and shower and pack for our family reunion in Lancaster.

So now I'm waiting for my parents and brother to be ready so we can leave.

I ate overnight oats for lunch with an apple and cold peppermint tea.

In the overnight oats:

1/2 c. 5 grain oats
1/2 c. soy milk

handful frozen fruit

1 tbs. flax

1 tbs. wheat germ

1/4 c. plain yogurt

2 tbs. almonds

I eat this all the time now! Its so good =]

Long Day

2008-06-27T20:36:00.005-04:00

Hello out there!

So this is my first post and I have to say its very boring because I don't have any pictures of what I ate today or anything.

It's been an awful, long day.

This whole week I've been mad tired so my workouts have been lazy. (100 min on the stationay bike...recumbant mind you...very lazy)I broke my toe awhile back and haven't been able to run =[

I need to start because cross country season is approaching!

So besides biking I went grocery shopping with the family.

SOOOO much food. We stocked up for the month at WALMART.

FYI, I'm vegetarian and my family is a meat and potatoes/junk food loving bunch so we need basically two different sets of food.

I try to eat things with as few ingredients as possible.

For dinner I grilled some portobello mushrooms with thyme, parsley, olive oil, and majoram. On the side I had a gargantuan portion of broccoli and cauliflower, with an apple as a snack.

What really made my day awful was my parents arguing.

I hate when parents argue. Especially about silly things.

This was silly but dumb on my mum's part.

She dumped green beans down our garbage disposal....

so it clogged. My dad and I had to go downstairs and unscrew the pipe and let in drain into a bucket.

WHAT A MESS!!

I was covered in smelly water, egg shells, and green beans.

My parents better not say I don't do anything for them!