So I'm not sure when I'm going to be running again...

I don't understand what's wrong except that something in my knee is inflamed and makes it painful to use that leg.

I have not been eating healthy at all because of this.

I've been eating too much too late and not when I'm even hungry.

I really want to be running. Heck I'd even BIKE at this point.

I hate sitting around. I feel lazy and icky.

Other than that being back at school is great.

My friends are here, new people, etc..

I think I'm going to nap

I need to calm the heck down.

I'm like freaking out.

Jeeze.

I'm so high-strung while I'm at school.

btw...I'm stupid and left all my non-running clothes at home.

yaaaah.

awesome.

off to do yoga and get ready for first xc practice.
doing the shortest run this morning because my friend who goes to college around here wants me to run a 3 with her this afternoon so there's no point busting my butt at 8 in the morning still half asleep.

running after school is going to be much better because I'll have a lot my energy because usually running is an outlet for me and by the end of the school day who knows how much will go awry!

peace homies

adddeeed:

uh well then didn't go as well as I could have hoped.

boo.

oh well.

haha now I have nothing to do the rest of the day.

ugh.

i'm pretty sure my xc coach hates me lol.(I guess that's not really funny but since I gave up caring about this place it kinda is)

I really need to lose my summer weight. My pants don't fit right.

UGH.

I feel a lot better after hitting the gym hard.

I always feel great after that.

Food was pretty much random.

lots of fruit, luna bars, and a vivanno.

still eating too much to lose a few pounds but that's ok.

Boredom is definitely a major factor in that.

School/XC in 2 days.
So pumped.

I'm in such a slump right now.

I'm very very upset about how much weight I've gained this summer.

I know it's stupid but I just let it bother me so much and I'm so self conscious.

I don't know what to do and I have no one to talk to about it with.

I am very excited about going back to school because I'll have a lot more to do and won't sit around bored.

I have felt sooo lazy this summer.

I think I will go to the gym now and try to take my mind off things.

even though I REALLY want to run today I don't think I should because my calf is KILLING me.

I definitely pulled it/strained it.
I'm kinda upset about it because I was really getting into it but I don't want to be out for cross country again.
off to get my senior pics done. Hopefully this won't take long. I'm so not into this!

so i just ate a yogurt, berry, cantaloupe wrap thing.

yum. but I keep overeating! I think its the working at night thing because I don't get to really sit down and eat until about 10 and by then I'm starved. I eat snacks but I have to scarf them down so they;re not satisfying. ggrrr.

I'm not sure how many calories the wraps are because I thought dietary fiber grams don't actually count as calories but on the package of these wraps they are counted? It says they have 4.5 g fat, i think 4 grams protein, and 36 g carbs which 21 g are supposedly fiber.
So that doesn't make sense if fiber g don't count and the calories are 200? I'm so confused lol.

Gymnastics is on and super exciting! GO WATCH!